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Music
Singing
insulted
confused and empty self
hello
this place is so empty. its so lonely. your words...
-.-
In the past, when this happened, i felt so sad and...
superstition?
the thought of running away from home, sounds like...
i'm so fucking angry to the point that my face is ...
FINALLY PT.2
worst day ever... Thursday, August 1, 2013 @ 11:07 AM
yesterday was a very sad day for me.... my dog actually bit the nose my my bear off :( i was so sad i cried. i loved that bear alot because it was what my mum gave me when i was just a small kid and i have slept with it every since. i cant sleep without it being near me. it's my friend, i've knew it for longer than anyone else and it has listened to all my problems( sounds freaky... i know....) and i just cried when i saw it on the floor with it's nose gone and a jarring 'wound' in its place. ohhh did my heart hurt. and it was also somehow my fault cause i dint notice it dropped onto the floor :( and that makes me feel even more shitty. it looks like voldemort now, and i had to sleep without it the other night because it was in the wash and as i expected, i could sleep properly at all.... :( i'm still in a mourning period now and am ignoring my dog. i contacted a"bear hospital" with hopes that i can get it back to what it looked like before but the person is not replying me... but i wont stop until i can get it fixed :( and because i cried in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep properly, i woke up late, had problems putting on makeup on my swollen eyes and couldn't catch my bus AND train to work and i was late. which really just made my day so much worst. and i just wanted to go home... sighhhhh i'm really anxious to get my bear fixed now. people say i'm crazy cause its just a bear, a soft toy, but that bear has been with me for so long and it means a lot to me and my childhood. just imagine something dear to you ruined or destroyed. its the same thing. the feeling sucks when you know something will never be the same anymore, but even though i can never have that anymore, i want to try my best to imitate it so that can at least retain that memory.
yesterday was a very sad day for me.... my dog actually bit the nose my my bear off :( i was so sad i cried. i loved that bear alot because it was what my mum gave me when i was just a small kid and i have slept with it every since. i cant sleep without it being near me. it's my friend, i've knew it for longer than anyone else and it has listened to all my problems( sounds freaky... i know....) and i just cried when i saw it on the floor with it's nose gone and a jarring 'wound' in its place. ohhh did my heart hurt. and it was also somehow my fault cause i dint notice it dropped onto the floor :( and that makes me feel even more shitty. it looks like voldemort now, and i had to sleep without it the other night because it was in the wash and as i expected, i could sleep properly at all.... :( i'm still in a mourning period now and am ignoring my dog. i contacted a"bear hospital" with hopes that i can get it back to what it looked like before but the person is not replying me... but i wont stop until i can get it fixed :( and because i cried in the middle of the night and couldn't sleep properly, i woke up late, had problems putting on makeup on my swollen eyes and couldn't catch my bus AND train to work and i was late. which really just made my day so much worst. and i just wanted to go home... sighhhhh i'm really anxious to get my bear fixed now. people say i'm crazy cause its just a bear, a soft toy, but that bear has been with me for so long and it means a lot to me and my childhood. just imagine something dear to you ruined or destroyed. its the same thing. the feeling sucks when you know something will never be the same anymore, but even though i can never have that anymore, i want to try my best to imitate it so that can at least retain that memory.
