just me.

wasted saturday...

2011-03-19T01:29:00.000-07:00

its been awhile since i updated.
today is a real wasted day.
i wanted to go to the flea at orchard.
smoochiesz, the makeup livejournal is holding a store there.
i originally though of going. but then i ended up not going...
i was thinking there is really nothing much i wanted to get...
and i just ordered loads of stuff from an elf spree..
the only lemming i've had recently is for creme blushes.
but one whole trip for a creme blush is a little...
and i'm alone too..
i dont mind much, but i just dont really have the mood anymore.
and i need to stop spending so much...
oh well... maybe the next flea then.
i'd most likely be going out with my parents later on.
relatives are coming over on their own insisting
despite mum saying no.
just gives the feeling that they wanna come over because there is a maid to do all the dirty work.
if this happens once... there will be more to come.
but we'll how how next time...
so my parents and i will not be at home while we have 'guests'

2011-03-06T06:07:00.000-08:00

tonight i shall sleep earlier and wake up tmr morning to go for a morning walk. i really need to get my diet plan going...
if i want to get a chance of passing ANY audition...
i'll have to start getting myself started if i even want to make it to anywhere :/
and i'm already 18! T.T
and my parents approved me taking my driving lessons :D
but its a complicated procedure...
but driving will change my life~
well baby steps~

up late^^

2011-03-05T10:57:00.000-08:00

i'm still up :P

and sitting beside me is my dad :D

he's playing poker on facebook while downloading something.

haha since tmr is his oni day with no work.

i'm still on maple cause i'm not sleepy.

i always contradict myself ><

but i shall try to get up early tmr ><

2011-03-05T06:31:00.000-08:00

i have this craving for cold noodles :/

despite having just taken dinner :P

and there i go about slimming down...

such irony... ><

anime T.T

2011-03-05T06:25:00.000-08:00

why is it that my anime cant load properly?? T.T

and it loads slow too...

i want to watch my anime....

POPIAH!

2011-03-05T05:59:00.000-08:00

just had dinner ^^

we had guests over. mum's friend.

mummy cooked popiah^^ love it when she cooks that :D yummy~

and there goes this fat kid's dreams to turn to a thin kid :P

i should probably get a job :/

this girl needs money for her driving license.

yes~ wanna take up driving.

driving will probably change my whole life~ especially since school is so far away.

i should wake up early tmr morning to go for that job i've been contemplating to gofor like forever :/

2011-03-04T12:03:00.000-08:00

i'm still awake :/

and i was thinking of waking up early to go for a morning jog/walk...

looks like i wont be looking forward to that... haha

watching the king's speech. well i'm half concentrated :P

playing maple at the same time :P hehe.

not that bad a movie, although i might not understand half of it :P

oh! gonna get my bigbang album tmr ^^ excited! :D

lappy is running out of battery now~

2011-03-04T05:44:00.001-08:00

i'm done with the new layout ^^

i like it.

i still wanna change the colours thought i shall when i have the mood anothetr day :P

off to play maple now :P

oh yeah did i mention? bigbang is back! :D

been almost a week since though haha.

i love them loads.

2011-03-04T04:54:00.000-08:00

safari is not making the viewing of this blog easy...

but it works fine in IE and GC.

wonder if there is anything to make to ok in safari too...

i'm too accustomed with safari :/

long time no see...

2011-03-04T04:08:00.000-08:00

its been long since i blogged. haha sorry

its the holidays now and i'm rotting at home.

need to find a job :/ or at least chiong my piano...

i'm supposed to have piano this week,

but i cancelled it. needed time to rest.

and i hate it when i have to travel so far for the lessons.

mum, i need a piano at home.

feeling down. looking down on my heart.

2011-02-15T05:48:00.000-08:00

i find this picture expresses how i feel now.

i dont know how to explain but i feel... sad in simplicity.

i kinda despise myself.

for forgiving all the time

the whole world tells me not to, but i still said "its ok"

seriously, my value is always not taken seriously.

i'm always someones spare tire. the scapegoat, the excuse.

all i want to do now is just put my earphones now

and just head down to an empty marina barrage

and just feel the sweet breeze along with beautiful music.

thats all i want right now...

can stop blogging. the sudden surge in my love for music.

2011-02-14T08:10:00.001-08:00

i'll i see here is a musicians love for music.

nothing material

no scandals

no schemes

just music.

sometimes i cant help but to admire this sexy man's talent

the music is can come up with is so extraordinary

something i dont have but

i want to be like him one day.

shrouded by the love for nothing but the sound of the music

11:59 14.02.11 will you be my valentine?

2011-02-14T08:00:00.001-08:00

like always,

i was lonely for valentines.

but its over now.

we'll see how next year turns out.

and there's something wrong with my blogskin

should change it

seems like it has compatibility issues with safari...

if i do, will it still stay the same?

2011-02-14T07:46:00.000-08:00

my exact sentiments.

but if i do, will things still stay the same?

i know you changed and so have i.

but dont you agree you changed for the worst?

you know i love you more then anything in the world.

but i sometimes feel you dont think the same as i do.

there's a truckload of words i want to spill from my mouth but

its a long story and my heart tells me to stop.

we'll see if i have the mood to blog bout this the next time.

exams are here, but i'm totally slacking...

should buck up...

the end of the first year.

2011-02-12T00:04:00.000-08:00

this is the end of my year 1 road.

the next time i go back to school, i'll be a year 2

excluding when i go back for the exams...

i'll miss this group is monkeys.haha

we might not have bonded as well,

but i still love them~

finally.

2011-02-08T23:00:00.001-08:00

i finally changed the damned blog skin.

with the help of dear ellis of course.

class ended early.

going to do homework now so that i dont have to worry when i go home.

wednesday is done and we're oni left with thursday and friday till the end of this semester.

hmmm wonder how it will be like.

oh! i'm gonna partial for the first time on friday.... haha!

the end?

2011-02-06T23:40:00.000-08:00

found this picture of this sexy guy when i accidentally clicked a bookmark.

today is really dead, but we managed to do our work.

realized that the exams are really nearing...

just next week and i havent started studying at all yet...

i have to start soon.

last week of school... dont feel as special as when i wad back in last sem though...

nobody is that sad yet... haha

we'll see how.

miss the 5 sexy guys... but they'll be back soon

nobody understands right....

but nobody will read anyway :P

hehe

dead day.

2011-02-06T20:03:00.000-08:00

back in school....

boring day...

no mood for work...

feel like sleeping.

after a long holiday, my brain dont feel like working...

today's work is weird too..

creative concept is always fun but it always demand stuff thats out of the norm...

well... we'll see

be back later.

blogskins.

2011-02-06T05:09:00.000-08:00

hmmm... blogger is not what it used to be anymore...

i'm trying to change the blogskin here but i dont have a clue on how to do it anymore.

sheesh... guess i have to keep on trying.

something's not right.

2011-02-06T04:15:00.000-08:00

somethings not right in the house right now.

actually it was ever since i woke up.

we were actually supposed to go visiting today, but we dint in the end.

i dunno why, mum said it was cause i woke up too late and all.

well, mum's being awfully PMS. Dad's being emo.

and my bro already went to sleep, after knowing the atmosphere.

i really dont know what to do. its this type of thing i hate in the house.

this kind of attitude everybody shows.

all i know is that mum was shouting at the maid this morning.

it woke me up and i went back to sleep.

before that mum came in to wake me up, but in the end i just ended up going back to sleep.

even though i said i liked this year's new year, something is always not there.

imagine with these circumstances, it is already the best i've had so far,

imagine the past CNYs.

i haven't even bai nian to my parents yet. my mum came in just now to throw me the angbaos from them.

and i emphasize throw...

all i can do now is to just keep quiet. go to sleep soon and wait and see what happens tmr morning.

oh and its back to school tmr. how i wish life is not so stressful...

oh look... the atmosphere is getting to me already....

after the new year hype.

2011-02-05T06:38:00.000-08:00

its the third day of the lunar new year. just came back from a dinner with my father's friends.
they were talkng about their young times. they were fun to listen to.

and finding out things you never knew about your parents.

and about how my dad used to be so good at badminton amongst his friends.haha

well, this new year has been fun.

i find, the best in a few years.

this year everybody is united and happy[other than having my clothes rejected... haha]

this year we even took pictures :D

really felt nice and warm like a family.

i guess everybody is more grown up already and we start feeling the unity.
its been tiring, visiting and all but alls good :D
i think this year is going to be great ^^

oh and i really have to remind myself to change the template of this blog...

haha. ok going to watch dream high now.

loaded it days back but havent watched it yet.

after that its on the gossip girls :P

bye~

happy bunny year~

long time no see.

2011-02-02T10:29:00.000-08:00

this is my first blog post in a long while.
happy cny. everybody is sleeping while i have this sudden urge to blog.
i deleted my old one, in wants to start anew. its a new year anyway.
i'm still sitting here with my make-up on, still in the clothes i went out with.
i have no clothes to where this new year. like every year, it gets rejected by my mum.
only to wear something she likes instead, or what she likes to call, showing respect to the elders.
she says wearing black is a form of sending the elders "off". i've never heard of that before. sounds ubsurd. well, back to the drawing board, on news years day. i know i should not act like that, its just my heart that cries thats all.
happy new year everyone.