21
Music
Singing
FUCK
BREAK?! WHAT BREAK?
feeling lonely
o(╥﹏╥)o
will i...?
worst day ever...
insulted
confused and empty self
hello
this place is so empty. its so lonely. your words...
Sunday, January 12, 2014 @ 9:14 AM
i'm terribly sorry. i was too silly and too blur... i cant seem but to keep causing trouble these few days. i'm a terrible person...
i seem to be weak in every aspect, always the weak link, even at work. i cant help but to feel like a burden. this morning, i quarrelled with dad and i just really wanted to disappear, leave, cause i just seem to me that i'm a hindrance to everybody. i never realised i was so weak and useless, the voice in my head told me "disappear".
i had a little time to think after that, away from everybody, and i told myself i need to make a conscious effort to change, i realised the whole concept of me right now is totally not who i want to be, everything i am right now is someone even i would shun. i hate the way i am right now, and as a 21year old this year, i sure as hell dont think and behave like one. i should not be like this, i should not take what i have for granted. i'm awkward and cant seem to open up. i cant even seem to get past myself, i know i have super low self esteem and i cant accept myself, i never have.
this is a declaration of change for myself in 2014. i know its a little late but i wanna change who i am right now. be more conscious, be more mature, be more thoughtful and be more determined. i know there are lots more i should work on. i wanna be more deserving to the people who are always beside me, to the cakes, to cheryl and to my family. let me redeem myself and please help see me through it
i'll keep working to change myself, i dont want to ever feel this way again because you guys are too important to me, and you guys definitely deserve better..
i'm terribly sorry. i was too silly and too blur... i cant seem but to keep causing trouble these few days. i'm a terrible person...
i seem to be weak in every aspect, always the weak link, even at work. i cant help but to feel like a burden. this morning, i quarrelled with dad and i just really wanted to disappear, leave, cause i just seem to me that i'm a hindrance to everybody. i never realised i was so weak and useless, the voice in my head told me "disappear".
i had a little time to think after that, away from everybody, and i told myself i need to make a conscious effort to change, i realised the whole concept of me right now is totally not who i want to be, everything i am right now is someone even i would shun. i hate the way i am right now, and as a 21year old this year, i sure as hell dont think and behave like one. i should not be like this, i should not take what i have for granted. i'm awkward and cant seem to open up. i cant even seem to get past myself, i know i have super low self esteem and i cant accept myself, i never have.
this is a declaration of change for myself in 2014. i know its a little late but i wanna change who i am right now. be more conscious, be more mature, be more thoughtful and be more determined. i know there are lots more i should work on. i wanna be more deserving to the people who are always beside me, to the cakes, to cheryl and to my family. let me redeem myself and please help see me through it
i'll keep working to change myself, i dont want to ever feel this way again because you guys are too important to me, and you guys definitely deserve better..
