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It's been so long since i've been this confused. I...
thanks for making me feel insecure all the time.
Because no matter what, the odds will always be ag...
i think you dont know what its like to constantly ...
the feeling that is overwhelming in me right now, ...
be yourself? i now realise that that is the most u...
indifference.
am i a failure? everything i am is just a total mi...
what am i doing?
great, you just gotta go and fuck everything up. y...
Monday, September 8, 2014 @ 8:02 AM
i know i have a lot to improve on. i know i am not smart. i know that sometimes i am careless and a bimbo.
but i really dont want to be placed in a position of being the target in a firing range again. i had it done once to me and now you of all people do it to me. i might not be smart in this field although i am working here, but am i not trying? what are you trying to get at? getting me to quit cause you think i dont know enough? well of course you know more than me, you are super interested in this field, while i am not. i am only looking for a way to survive and learn and educate myself through first hand experience. why should i have to explain myself to you cause you think i am a bimbo and not smart enough to you?
dude i like you, and you just broke me heart and whatever little self esteem and confidence i had. by putting me in the firing range and telling me all that. i dont think i am wrong, i just dont know enough and is know knowledgeable enough. why you gotta put me down like that.
life has been making me really confused and sad recently, everyday i am sad, i cant think of one happy thing that happened to me. even if it did, the sadness just overwhelms it. i need to see a shrink. i am making changes to my life so that i can be happy, and as i am trying, you tell me that i am not enough, a bimbo and subtly hinting to me that i am stupid. thanks for making me fucking hate who i am even more.
i know i have a lot to improve on. i know i am not smart. i know that sometimes i am careless and a bimbo.
but i really dont want to be placed in a position of being the target in a firing range again. i had it done once to me and now you of all people do it to me. i might not be smart in this field although i am working here, but am i not trying? what are you trying to get at? getting me to quit cause you think i dont know enough? well of course you know more than me, you are super interested in this field, while i am not. i am only looking for a way to survive and learn and educate myself through first hand experience. why should i have to explain myself to you cause you think i am a bimbo and not smart enough to you?
dude i like you, and you just broke me heart and whatever little self esteem and confidence i had. by putting me in the firing range and telling me all that. i dont think i am wrong, i just dont know enough and is know knowledgeable enough. why you gotta put me down like that.
life has been making me really confused and sad recently, everyday i am sad, i cant think of one happy thing that happened to me. even if it did, the sadness just overwhelms it. i need to see a shrink. i am making changes to my life so that i can be happy, and as i am trying, you tell me that i am not enough, a bimbo and subtly hinting to me that i am stupid. thanks for making me fucking hate who i am even more.
